After destroying the mafia in New York, Jonathan and Johnson are wanted
men. The CIA has offered them safe passage but not everyone agrees they
belong, including them. Going through the motions at The Farm, the
training location for all CIA agents, Jonathan and Johnson find
themselves outcast by all the instructors as well as some of the top
students. When the lead instructor decides to take matters into his
own hands the only result is death. Jonathan and Johnson find
themselves on the run once again but can they really out run the CIA?
I started a new book today. It goes along the lines of Lost Inside. The disclaimer will show you what my goal for this book is. What I am looking for, from you, my fans, is to spread the word to anyone who has depression, bipolar, or any other mental issues. I want to tell their stories, to share with the word how they cope with issues they face daily. They can choose to remain anonymous if they so desire. Just email me at email@example.com so we can talk.
Here is my disclaimer. Please be honest in what you think.
First off let me start this book with a
disclaimer. I do NOT, have a degree in anything, least of all
psychology, but then again, I really don’t believe in most that do.
I say this because I’ve been challenged in
the past for my book, Lost Inside, about what gives me the right to give
advice to people with depression, bipolar, or other mental issues. That
my advice is dangerous to them because I’m not a psychologist.
Well, what gives you the right? Just
because you have a piece of paper that gives you a title? Now I said MOST
earlier because when speaking with those who have challenged me I ask, “Do you
have depression, bipolar, or any other mental issues you treat?” Usually the
answer is, “No.”
You use phrases like, I understand,
I know what you’re going through, and I see but in actuality you
do not. How can you “understand” how I’m feeling if you’ve never felt it
before? How can you “know what I’m going through,” if you yourself have
never been through it? How can you “see” what I’m talking about if you’ve
never experienced it? Simply put, you can’t! You can guess
at it, but you will never know.
But you think you know better than me
because you have a degree and I don’t. Well all I can say to that is,
would you mind if I wipe my ass with that piece of paper, cause to me that’s
all it’s worth.
With that stated, all I have left to offer
those who have these mental issues is my voice. I can only speak to what
I feel and what I have been through. If you feel the same, have
experienced what I have experienced, then by all means share my words. I
know the hardest thing to do is express how you feel to someone who has no idea
how you feel. My goal is to build a bridge between those two worlds and
offer understanding to those who truly do not understand.
These are my emotions, my experiences, my
joys, my pains, my own words. I hope you find them helpful.
With the holidays approaching fast, things all around us are changing. Despite what we tell ourselves it's not all for the better. This is the most stressful time of the year and we do it to ourselves, on purpose. While everyone is spreading cheer, there are those that are suffering in silence, more than usual, this time of year. I use to be one of those people. For those, this poem is for you.